My name is Statashi, and I may have, no, I know I have, the cutest little sister in the world. She’s always there, with that sweet, loving smile and how she calls me Onii-chan, just bring the biggest smile to my face. Her name was Sani, she was only seven, the last time I seen her, the last time I’ll ever see her alive.
It was six years ago, I was still in high school, my last year. I was hanging with my best friends, Rin and Lon, after class. We been friends for a while, since middle school. We were talking about the colleges we were planning on going to after we have gotten out. The sound of the class room door opening stopped us and as we stared as a elementary school girl run up and squeezed me. It was Sani, smiling with large eyes.
“Onii-chan! Onii-chan! I missed you, lets walk home together!” She said giggling.
Her school was actually not even a mile from mine, so she would usually walk or run to see me and get me to walk home with her. Usually to buy her ice cream or some ramune.
“Well Sani, the guys and me were actually planning on hanging out tonight. I’ll play with you tomorrow ok?” I said patting her head. She only pouted and looked down.
“Hey Sani! I’ll buy you any ice cream you want, ok? You just name it.” Said Lon, with his goofy, tooth smile, Rin nodding. Sani’s face shot back up with a bright smile, her eyes glimmering with excitement.
“Parfait! I want a parfait with lots of fruit!”
“Your the princess. We all will go for parfaits and ramune tomorrow! Lon’s treat!” Rin said, patting her head gently.
Rin and Lon began to playfully argue. Sani kisses me on the cheek and runs off, waving at me. I wave back at her. I felt bad leaving her alone, but she walks home by her self plenty of times. Besides, the town is so small, you know everyone. Rin hits me, making me loose train of thought.
We started walking down the walk way, like usual, but only thing was wrong was…there were police car lights flashing in the distance. We all dashed to see was going on. A turning sensation started to accure in my stomach. When we had gotten to the scene, police officers were pushing away nosey bystanders. It was a wreck. both of the cars were totaled, debris strode across the road. I looked around, but…something caught my eye. A pink, bloody shoe…the one I bought Sani online, her favorite. I panic and ran over to the area, but a officer tried to stop me, I dodged and continue to run. My heart stopped, underneath a chunk of debris, soaking in a pool of blood, was the arm of a small child. I couldn’t breathe. My vision went blurred, I must of passed out for the next thing I know, I’m at my house on the couch in the living room. Around me was my mom and two officers talking.
“How could this happen? To a small child no less!” Her face was full of tears.
“I’m truly sorry ma’am. Both drivers had been killed in the collision. Your daughter, was crushed by the flying debris from one of the cars.”
I sat up, rubbing my head. I must of hit the concrete hard. Mom turned around, slapping me across the cheek. Dazed, I rubbed my cheek looking up at her. She only glared.
“How could you do this to Sani! Letting her walk by herself! She never deserved this, why couldn’t it have been you!” She spat at me, raising her hand again. I jumped, scared of getting hit, but one of the officers caught her wrist.
“Ma’am, come with me. I’m taking you down to the station, so you can cool off. In the state your in, your might do something you regret.”
She looked at me, as I rubbed my cheek, tears building up in my eyes. This was the first time she actually struck me. Her eyes widen, suddenly wrapping her arms around me.
“I’m so sorry, please forgive me.” She said, kissing my forehead, leaving with the officers.
The house was quiet for the past few days. Dad worked as a CEO in this huge company in the next city so his only home a few days a week, so I was basically home alone. Mom had gone to her sisters house, she had left a message on the answering machine. I guess she was still a little mad or upset with me. I understood why, I mean, I was pretty mad at myself. Maybe if I did walk with her, it would of been me instead. I mean, mom even said it…
A jolt went up my spine. A sudden cold chill surrounded me. I know I heard a voice, or maybe it was the solitude getting to me. I walked to Sani’s room, standing right infront of it, leaning my head against the door. I felt at ease, and smiled slightly.
The phone began to ring, a wave of annoyance hit me as i walked and answered the phone.
“Dude! Has something been weird been going on?” It was Lon, but his voice was shaking.
“No, what’s going on? Did something happen?” I tried my best to calm him down, but it sounded like he was out of breath.
“Can I come to your house? Please?”
“Sure, I’m home alone anyways, could use the company myself.”
“Thanks man!” And hangs up. I could hear my door open and shut, Lon rushed up to me grabbing me, he must of been close cause it wasn’t long when he hung up. He was covered in sweat.
“I heard something, man. A voice, some voice! I think somethings after me.”
All I could do was shake my head and walk him to my couch, setting him down. His breath was short, he must of ran the whole way here.
“I heard her, I heard Sani…” His face went into his hands. I felt a sharp pain as I heard her name.
“What do you mean you heard Sani. Sani’s dead.” Try as my might, I couldn’t hold my voice from shaking. I put my hand on his shoulder, he was shaking. Either he was telling the truth or he was a convincing liar. Either way, I never seen him like this before.
“Rin even said he heard it, but he wasn’t scared. He said it was only the stress and depression getting to him. But, if that was really it, why am I hearing it too? Have you heard it?”
I froze. Was what I heard Sani? Or was it my imagination. I just shook my head. I didn’t know how to answer. Lon just peeked at me from his hands.
“You don’t mind if I crash on the couch do you? I don’t want to be alone.”
I just nodded and walked to my room. I guess I should fall asleep myself. The room was surprisingly chilly. I don’t understand why because it was the middle of spring. I didn’t pay no mind. I left the door cracked to keep a ear on Lon, and laid down. I guess I was tired, I fell asleep right then as soon as I hit the bed.
Lon was gone the next day. I guess I was a little sad he was gone. I was alone again. My thoughts swirled into my head. All good memories that will never happen again. I can hear that voice over and over…louder. Saying, ‘Onii..chan…’. I don’t know if it is Sani, cursing me, or if it’s my mind playing tricks on me. It’s to the point that, now I can see her at the corner of my eye. Her pale body, bloody and her tattered clothes drenched with grease and blood. Her arms stretched out, with her hair over her face. I would love to hold her, but then again, what if she isn’t real.
Few weeks had past, no one has called or stopped by. I guess I’m alone. I start to laugh to myself. I guess I’ve gone past the edge. I could see her clearly. She stood right in front of me. Sani, you must be so lonely, I know I am here with out you. I let out a sigh, my sight goes into a haze, causing me to black out.
“Onii-chan…Onii-chan! Wake up!”
I can her Sani’s voice so clear, I can hardly move. My body feels so heavy, but why?
“Onii-chan! You must wake up! Please wake up!”
I felt someone cup my hand, squeezing it tightly. I slowly began to open my eyes. There, slightly, I can make up Sani’s smiling face in a bright lite room, rubbing my hand on her cheek. Her smile faded into my mother’s sobbing face, tears dripping on my arm. I looked around, to see a hospital room. Why was I here?
“Satashi…your alive.” My mother said, placing her head onto mine.
“What happen…” I said sitting up. A sharp pain in my back caused me to halt.
“Dude, you don’t remember? You was hanging in the living room.” Rin said, sitting in a chair in the corner, Lon was leaning on his shoulder asleep.
“Then how did you find me? You all never called or visit…I dont’t even remeber what happened. I just remeber blacking out.”
Rin looked down, a serious look was on his face.
“Sani,visited me and Lon. Each time she came to us, she would say ‘Onii-chan’ or ‘save’. I was curious when she appeared in front of us, saying ‘save…onii-chan…please’. Her face some how showed sadness. It was Lon’s idea to check up on you. You didn’t answer your door, so we opened it, and there you were, hanging by a sheet around your neck. We got you down and brought you here but…Doctors said they didn’t know if you suffered from brain damage.”
I smiled, the thought of sani doing that made me happy. It seem that the depression over took my own mind, causing me to black out and commit such a act. Explaining what I saw while I was alone and when I had woken up, seemed that Sani wasn’t trying to haunt or curse us, but in fact help me. I guess she sinced my deep depression. I’m glad she didn’t hate me. Since the day I was released from the hospital, everything took a turn for the better.
Today makes the sixth year of her death, I live by myself now, but sometimes I can still see her, not the battered corpse, but the loving smiling girl I knew, running up and down my halls. I guess she’s still worried about me being sad or missing her. But I’m more worried about if she’s happy staying here with me and not moving on in peace. But, I’m sure she would leave at her own time.
“Isn’t that right, Sani?”